i have been in a horible mood this week.
mainly because this is the worst week ever.
MONDAY: of course i had to work. that was bad because my cousin Frank was at my grandparents. this day being one of the last times i would get to see him before he left for marines/Iraq. AND AND, i got hit on by some 26 year old. which made me feel very awkward and scared and apparently this sitation caused a commotion with management- i later foudn out. after work, i was driving to my grandparents and i got lost in lindenwald. but i ended up on the right track. so, before i got in i txted Joey to call me later, because i needed to talk to him about what happened. the family thing was good. i realized how close me and Frank are and i will miss him a lot. so, later that night we caught a few fireworks. nothing great. Joey didn't call until 1, and i was asleep. totally defeated the purpose.
TUESDAY: no word from Joey, feel gross because of monday's work situation.
WEDNESDAY: talked to Mike about somehting completely random. something about a show on friday and clarissa going. didn't think about it too much. still ew, and haven't talked to Joey.
THURSDAY: Mike tells me that he and CLarissa are going out. i was shocked to hear that- and upset. i mean, me and Mike aren't togeter now or anything. but when he was with that Erinne girl, he talked about missing me, and still loving me, etc, etc. and i thought he was actually telling the honest truth. until i hear this. obviously he and Erinne broke up, and now he goes out with CLARISSA?! i don't get it at all. i mean, its not like they live near each other or know each other at all. but whatever, i mean this has been the cherry on a great week. its not that i am in love with Mike again, its just we have been through a lot, and i thought he understood that. and i thought i mentioned him to Clarissa numerous times, so i didn't think she'd do something like that. i guess i was wrong. its not like i am bent on breaking them up, its just i think of things that could go down. i am not going to be shy about it, mike was my first real boyfriend, my first kiss. so he is the guy that i hold close to me and will always love in some way, no matter who i talk to or what. so, Mike, if you read this i am not going to expect you know what i mean, because i am a fickle girl, this is not some plea to get you to break up with her. this is me and my thoughts and feelings. nothing more, nothing less.
i haven't hear from Joey at all, except for that one time.
i really did want to talk to him about what happened to me.
i mean, i HAVE to talk to someone...
ps. i have lots of pictures to upload.